decomposing

I like my head thick

Skull white 

and weighted

The thought

The temptation

Of bones relapsing 

to new places 

Of glass 

and gardens in vases

Falling

Splitting and bursting

And reflecting in the sun

Like how i know

who i am

The sound 

The soft pull

When wine hits the ground

When teeth wrap their tounge

And metal rises in throat

When you close 

And turn and turn

Or feel the pretty burn

Of blood on your lounges

And earth

Earth is alive

Always

Always

In you 

The aching wound

The rasping rash

Of too much

Or not enough

Takes me

Heals

And holds me

I cover myself 

With falling cherries

And wet petals

Until the bugs crawl back

Awakened in their trance

I am brought to life

To see

The decomposing 

The muddening 

Of my very own body

But i am already blooming

You see

I want you to believe 

I am in my prime

The right color and sound

Don't notice 

The colour pouring over the ground 

A slit in the stem

Its me not them

Patterns and petals unflolding 

No turning back

But please not this

Not this

Not this

leaves

In all their colour 

and all their light

The leaves squint eyes

And feel teardrops of the sky

Wash them away

All will heal

All will fade 

Being held by the sky

Being held by the earth

Breathe rain, smoke and dirt

Reach your glaced cold fingers 

To the spinning stars

And with split minds

Our galaxy sliced

Our bodies made from stars

Shinethrough like glass 

Just breathe and breathe and breathe

All is earth, all is alright 

And people like nature

Shift into different shapes 

and tangles of colour

And its after the cold white bright

You'll see blossoms in springlight

With black branches high

Curved and moulded and reaching

Like the sticks of the sun

Or the sticks that are my bones

And in the shower of a million petals

What dont colour you

Might colour me

In my hand i also hold my own

And I love i love i love

forests of lamplight

I am wrapped

Clothed in a shine

Held by a song

That travels through

The marrow of my bone

As stars drip their smile

Waterfalls of light 

Down my roof at night

And the specks of wonder 

Get clogged in leaves and moss

And all creatures and tiny ones

living in the gutter

And what a beauty

There is in all of that life 

Just because it lives

And existes and thrives

Patricles, sound, colour and light

And that there could ever be anything ever

Named humans, grapes, cakes and clouds

Jellifishes, lillies and cherry pie

And i'd like to shower in that glowing pulsating fascination of life

To keep my hope high

And my feet a little over ground

And I want to hymn to that song

The homely pulse of my core

The gratitude of all

To look up into forests of lamplight

And as candles flicker in the sky

To remember

One day

They'll blow out

my body in the moon

But glaced under warps and wraps

Blank papers and cardbord layers

My childhood remains

And a body about to rust

Is left to yearn and lust

my knuckles and limbs to dust

And the glowing moon is the final form

Round and never to be seen at dawn

And i need to push push push

To not fly to the sky

Wheigh my feet to the ground

And walk around still

And live

Try to live

With a little bit

Of sun in my eye

Yet i am happy

To hear the drizzling of fountains

Dripping from lunar skies

Har jeg pakket?

Har jeg pakket enda?

Ja jeg har pakket

Pakket hjertet mitt inn i sagflis

Og glass og skitne fiberkluter

snowflakes

Theres a castle

Up there

Somewhere

Under the full golden shine

Of the city at night

Mirroring its figure 

On the cold coal river

Its that sound

Of different shaped shoes

Some old, some new

Clicking into the vast space

And everyone has a tug in their hearts

We all have a story

But nobody tells me theirs

So I don't tell mine

I wanted to visit the forest 

With the heated green leaves

And fussy moths like snowflakes 

under warm evening lamps

dripping with light

But the thought of unknown black

In a city filled with tune and sound

Held me back

And as the strangers pass

I am the warmed one

Lighted and dripping

Like a teapot

I pour down and down

Inside myself

And the people they walk and chat

They hum and laugh and hug

And they are lovely with eachother 

And it hurts

When you don't

And your lovelies

Are not around that streetcorner

anymore

Or up on that castle

Or swimming in the river

And in golden light on frozen nights

You have to search

New eyes

And hopefully

One or two smiles

And yourself

Be an evening lamp light

Wanting snowflakes 

To fall on your crown

☆ kløvd oppstykket menneske ☆

I blendende lys med skarpe kanter

og glødende alger i alle farger

kuttes mønstre og mennesker opp

I en natt som mørkeblå gardiner

ser jeg hullene i himmelhvelvingen

sløret som dekker øyne og øre

og vakumet som river oss vekk

Hvor jeg ellers hadde glødet

størkner og sørger døde stjerner

og mitt hode er kløvd på midten

Et oppstykket, oppkuttet menneske 

blant andre som ikke vet å være hele

Uten deg er bare halve meg

og halve meg kan knapt leve

Jeg har reist fra min ene, 

Han er mitt hjem, mitt liv, mitt hjerte