blank numbness
lures me inn
mindless indifference
kisses my chin
the silver surface
says its time
strokes my hand
murmurs goodnight
i sink into
mirrors of blue
as the earth fades into
shadows
silhouettes
of my unconscious
my mind laced
with fog
my heart draped
with smoke
nothingness swallows me
as i drown in a sea
of glistening mercury
waves of apathy
my essence
my soul
was once a breathing
pulsating bird
of eccentric beauty
burning with passion
glowing with curiosity
my soul was once
a phoenix of light
but the thunder storm
stole its sizzling wings
all fire was blown out
where there once was life
there once was serenity
i feel a churning black hole
with nails and rocks and needles
where my hands cannot reach
where my brain cannot grasp
i need to feel
i need to fill
i'm trying to drown the void
the room which once held my soul
pour water where fire once roamed
numbed by the cold
cover burn marks with more smoke
soon i'll sink
in the silver on my hands
begging for the river to save me
remind me i am whole
i want water in my lungs
water fills
water hugs
water does what water can
as a friend
a source of life
the orgin of existence
on this entropic planet
we say we love
but dont take care of
if i melt into the nature
become one with the ocean
i will be in the hands of mother earth
though i never feel enough
she'll make me all filled up
