bathroom floor ☆

In the palm 

Of your hands

The cold crystal particles

Molecules of water

I want you to see through me

See through to my stem, 

my inner

Translucent like lace or a lake of water

Or the slow thin hope

Slowly bleeding from the middle of our hands

I fear my life is a bathroomfloor

And i'm laying immovable

Drenched in water

Dripping and bleeding into the sink

Melting away, like silk

the bus ☆

The bus, is like one big cradle

In which i see, houses and cars pass by

The rythmn of the wheels, the smell of people

Lullies me, holds me to sleep, 

and brushes like sugar against my cheek

braids my hair, as it whispers sweet

"you are exactly where, you were meant to be"

loving myself ☆

I finally remember 

How it feels to love the one which i always have with me

I am hearing my song

And my love for earth and my dandelion blown wishes are carried by the wind

I finally remember who that girl is

And how it is to sit with her

And feel who she is and how she is

I am finding my voice

That sometimes soft burn but firm and true like a flower or a knife

And me

I am finding me

Somewhere in this doll 

Who and what I want to be

art is to redefine ☆

Art is to redefine

To shed some light on another part of the sky

To just sit and take in

And let whatever enter the soul

To wake 

To create

To feel or know or cry or smile or sell your house or to never agian go outside

But art should not be the motivator for something gruesome

Maybe just the grief you had to feel

Or didint need to, but hey, its a nice thing to know you are alive and you felt something 

☆◇Someday◇☆

Our lamp at home, is like a fireplace

And this body like an oven

Like a moth, i am walking to the stars

In wide blue grass

The nearby parking-lot like a forest

I don't know who or where I am

But I know

I could have been, farther from home

From hope and joy

Me and the four white butterflies 

On purple-green flowers, in the night

Not yet home

But not far away

We will get there 

Someday

I sometimes look

Back to a river bank and a village

with two sisters and coloured houses

And think and wonder 

And look at these hands

And ask, how did I end up like this?

Cut up to bits

But truth is

I have always felt

Steep hills and cliffs

And blooming red streams

towering inside of me

Don't know who or what

But there is a now

And there will be a future

We will cling to it, sing to it, celebrate to it

We are not so far away

We will name it 

Someday

skape ☆☆☆

Talentskrapende

Ripende langs vinylgulvet

Jeg er skruer som blør inn i treverk

Og en kropp som blør inn i verden

Det knekker 

ved de opprustede leddene 

de jordlagte sårene

Hvordan kan jeg i det hele tatt skape og skrive og virke som jeg kan noe

Når jeg ikke kan noe

Vil finne et punkt som etser og pulserer inn i det menneskelige

Bre meg inn i det sykelige

Som tykk folie, skitten bandasje

Men hvordan kunne jeg noen gang trodd

At jeg hadde klart noe

Så vondt, så ærlig

Som å skape

girl in black, dissolving ☆

Here you see me

Girl in black

Diminishing myself

Turning my veins into side tracks

I have given so much

I have no more to give

Grown up in a story-book

Of rights and wrongs turned and twisted 

to the gaze of one side of the creature

So I chemically dissolved my fragile bones

and sacrificed my heart to the acids

To become of service

To be good

Silenced

Unoticable

I want to dissolve, melt and burn 

and turn over into something that floats on the lake

To simply not be in a world where my humanity is not seen

I want to burn down this house with all its pillows and carpets and clothes, 

and these twisted city blocks with all their harsh stone and millions of windows

I can take no more

Look what you did to me

Look, look, look

Into my bloodshut eyes, stapled hands and feet

Look at these coffee burn marks, these vegetable cuts, these gulps of blood, this scratched stovepot, this throat

Too many things have been done to me

So to any soul who listens

Your salty tears are heard

Your dreams matter

Your voice matters 

Your passions and your wishes and your hopes

You dont have to dissapear 

Into that big black hole

You are important

You are worthy

You have a right

To tell people when they hurt you

When they are wrong

When the world is unjust

You dont have to suffer in silence

Alone

You don't

Have to sacrafice and give all the blood in your body and skin of your back

To be seen

And to be loved