girl in black, dissolving ☆

Here you see me

Girl in black

Diminishing myself

Turning my veins into side tracks

I have given so much

I have no more to give

Grown up in a story-book

Of rights and wrongs turned and twisted 

to the gaze of one side of the creature

So I chemically dissolved my fragile bones

and sacrificed my heart to the acids

To become of service

To be good

Silenced

Unoticable

I want to dissolve, melt and burn 

and turn over into something that floats on the lake

To simply not be in a world where my humanity is not seen

I want to burn down this house with all its pillows and carpets and clothes, 

and these twisted city blocks with all their harsh stone and millions of windows

I can take no more

Look what you did to me

Look, look, look

Into my bloodshut eyes, stapled hands and feet

Look at these coffee burn marks, these vegetable cuts, these gulps of blood, this scratched stovepot, this throat

Too many things have been done to me

So to any soul who listens

Your salty tears are heard

Your dreams matter

Your voice matters 

Your passions and your wishes and your hopes

You dont have to dissapear 

Into that big black hole

You are important

You are worthy

You have a right

To tell people when they hurt you

When they are wrong

When the world is unjust

You dont have to suffer in silence

Alone

You don't

Have to sacrafice and give all the blood in your body and skin of your back

To be seen

And to be loved