down

Never before

Stood above the hole

With deep brown and black corners

With rocks and needles and nails at the floor

I have a place to sleep tonight

And every night 

And I am so lucky for that

But sleeping and eating and being

Is simply not enough

I yearn

I long

I want

But I can no longer be soothed

I have nowhere to be 

Nothing to do

And noone to be or do for

So I peer down the hole and wonder what leads a lost soul

down the road

And how some stay up?

And I am so so scared

that the down

will swallow me whole