brave knight

the night crawls

dark, cold, hungry

still moonlight brights

shines when no one's around

brave knight in the night

i let armor protect me

safe from the unforseen

sideways stabs

all attacks 

but with soft hands you

remove my hard shell

i didnt ask you to

i didnt want you to

without silver

i'm easy to break

cut, slit, unmake

by your hands i am so weak

though you are sweet

you have such deep capabilities 

to hurt me

a knife's kiss is all it'll take

my life on the stake

you do what you want to me 

heat or cool me

boil or freeze me

or keep me comfortably warm

left wondering if warmth is worth 

glaciers forming in the dark

needles of frost in my lungs

icecubes in my bones

rose in my hand

mine, only mine

blood red and alive

flourishing with power

individuality

creativity

but when i am with you

the flower turns blue

fulfilled and calm

petals flow like an ocean

waves, sand, soft flowing

i used to love my river of blood

my thick stream

full of gleam

i didnt need you to change me

you almost bring me back

to a the past

before my color

before my blooming

was it all for nothing?

are my petals still good enough 

am i back to rotting flowerbeds

was i ever flowing trough the forest

looking up at sunshine through leaves

or did i just trick myself?

i like the passion and ambition in red

i like warnings and i like adventures

does your love make me

someone i dont want to be?

is the blue a sign of rotting

a sign of death

or is it okay to be something new

although it isnt exactly what you wanted to

i dont know what to do

though i love you

i'm tired of war with me

war with you 

i need balance

purple obduction

lavender concoction

to make me some of what i was

and some of what you make me