☆ am i my brain? ☆

i don't see how anyone

can keep composure

stay sane

being tied to another 

invisible chain

tied to these arms

this body

this brain

is this all i am?

a biologic miracle

of human evolution

a set of cognitive abilities

that became liabilities

in dopamine narcotic cities

i am able to grasp so much

but i'll never quite understand

what the universe is

who i am

an animal in the eukarya domain?

a piece of moving meat

narcissistic enough 

to think i am not

that everything i am

can simply not rot 

when my body is buried 

and long forgot

my consciousness wants to be

more than 

an organ in a body

it wants to be

part of some intergalactic web

some energetic fabric

separate form

my shelter of flesh

i want to have a soul

or an energy one can not

feel or hold

so scared of fading 

into nothing

stiff and cold

my last hope is to be eternal

through dirt, bacteria and mold

give life to poppies

who braid into my soil