☆ my friend ☆

blank numbness

lures me inn

mindless indifference

kisses my chin

the silver surface

says its time

strokes my hand 

murmurs goodnight 

i sink into

mirrors of blue

as the earth fades into

shadows

silhouettes

of my unconscious

my mind laced

with fog

my heart draped 

with smoke

nothingness swallows me

as i drown in a sea

of glistening mercury

waves of apathy

my essence

my soul

was once a breathing 

pulsating bird

of eccentric beauty 

burning with passion

glowing with curiosity

my soul was once

a phoenix of light

but the thunder storm

stole its sizzling wings

all fire was blown out

where there once was life

there once was serenity

i feel a churning black hole

with nails and rocks and needles

where my hands cannot reach

where my brain cannot grasp

i need to feel 

i need to fill

i'm trying to drown the void

the room which once held my soul

pour water where fire once roamed

numbed by the cold

cover burn marks with more smoke

soon i'll sink

in the silver on my hands

begging for the river to save me

remind me i am whole

i want water in my lungs

water fills

water hugs

water does what water can

as a friend

a source of life

the orgin of existence

on this entropic planet

we say we love 

but dont take care of

if i melt into the nature

become one with the ocean

i will be in the hands of mother earth

though i never feel enough

she'll make me all filled up