☆ supermassive black hole ☆

i need to keep this flow 

of creativity

capture the inspiration pulsating 

through my body

i need to be more than a 

collection of bones

i want to float like tunes

in my headphones

crashing through the city 

like a dozen cyclones

i'm lit up like

a light bulb

always afraid the electricity 

will shut off

what if i loose my glow?

what if i loose the parts of me 

i love the most?

if the poet in me dies

i'll be buried with it

if my words wont unfold or bloom

just know i've reached my doom

my deepest fear is forgetting 

all i have become

my mind becoming 

blank as snow

i can no longer see 

my own shadow

as my hands dissolve

into the cold

i'm afraid the smallest leap 

in wrong direction

will make me slip down 

an endless slope

downhill

back to the black 

the darkness of my past

i'll be sucked into the void

a supermassive black hole

where i'll become my old self

thinking about her makes me loose my breath

i'm not finished celebrating her death