☆ natural disaster ☆

there is this destructive feeling

i can’t really explain

it’s when life gets so overwhelming

it makes me feel insane

i have been told repeatedly that i’m overreacting

but i don’t know how to stop what you call exaggeration

its like a thousand fireworks being lit inside my head

its too loud and too much at once

the sparks and lights crashing together

my world is painted in reds and blues and pinks

i feel the colors bleed from my eyes

as you tell me to relax and paint on a smile

it’s like my mind is a tornado

or a hurricane

an electric storm

purple lightning

more like a million wildfires

or a tsunami

avalanche

blizzard

natural disaster

i’m an earthquake of a person

i’m a whole fucking volcanic eruption

i'm just trying to save myself from corruption

convinced human existence is a malfunction